You know I would not say that I've been one of those girls who are like " I loved being pregnant, it was the best ever" and who cry when they see babies, but I have felt really happy that I have got to keep Jax all to myself, and know all these funny things about her that no one else has or even can... EVER. I have been blessed to feel grounded and content, and to have a reminder everyday of how much I have to appreciate when I'm feeling bitchy. But, lately... I'm just feeling a bit over it. It's getting harder and harder to be rational and optimistic because I'm so freaking tired and my body just aches. I no longer remember what it means to be comfortable, and I swear I will never complain again about seemingly "silly" illnesses such as 101 degree fevers and colds:) I used to be tired at 10, and now I feel that my eyes area glazed over at 3, and for some reason it's like I slunch over further with each passing hour. I mean at first it was like "oh how cute that I have to pee again... I'm pregnant." Well it's not really cute anymore that in the middle of the night, I'm doing the whole back and forth thing with my body just so I can obtain enough momentum to get out of the freaking bed (why did we get that low platform bed again) to waddle my butt to the bathroom. Not cute, let's just be honest.
So with laughter I will get though this last 7 weeks. I mean maybe it's a good thing. At this point labor really does not seem so bad.... I mean although it will hurt, it will be the end. I will finally get to tie my shoes and put on socks like a normal person, no longer feel like I'm sinking through every chair I sit in thinking "oh God, I feel like Ralphi's brother in the Christmas Story who falls over and can't get up," no longer need what seems like the entire pillow aisle in my bed to sleep, no longer feel that the muscles in my back are like the salt water taffy being stretched to death by that horrible machine, and hopefully... physically feel a gap between where my boobs end and my tummy begins. Oh, what a preggers girl dreams of!
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